Friday, October 5, 2007

I tend to repeat myself, I tend to repeat myself

I worked for one day this week before I went home crying and quit my first UK job after just one day. I felt really silly after getting myself utterly worked up for the previous 3 days before I started. I had not cried so deeply in years. In fact, the only time in my entire life do I ever recall crying harder was when my Mom and my Grandma died. I knew it was just a job and that it would be fine. More importantly, I knew that Jonnie would support me in whatever decision I made about the job. After all, it was only a temp. position in the first place.
My duties were administrative, which I have experience at. It shouldn't have been such a big deal. It was though. Sadly. Answering the phones was awful! Nobody understands a word I speak the first time I say it. I hate repeating myself. Maybe that sounds silly but it is a pet peeve of mine as I pride myself on speaking clearly and communicating to the best of my ability.
Maybe we all speak English over here but I speak an American version of it and apparently not too many people here speak it. Ugh... anyway. I am feeling a bit better about the HUGE amount of tears I have cried over this issue the past week because I just found out that I AM indeed, MUCH TO MY SURPRISE really, AM PREGNANT.
There are no words to describe how I am feeling. My hands are trembling, the milk and banana I had for breakfast (though extremely mild of a meal that it was) is threatening to return, and though I'm pretty sure I can't be more than a month along, my whole entire life has changed in an instant.
I just called the lady back at the hospital and asked her to verify, AGAIN, my test results. "Didn't I just speak with you?" she asked. For once, I wasn't the one repeating myself. Yes, the results came back positive. Positive? YES, POSITIVE! :D

1 comment:

Deedra Lynn said...

Yeah! Focus on this beautiful moment right now; who cares about the job, anyway, right?! God will guide you to the right place at the right time. In the meantime, you'll never get to fully enjoy to experience again like you do with your first pregnancy (because next time you'll have to be changing diapers while you have morning sickness:)